I am mother to one smart arse, wise-cracking 3.5 year old, who is master of the pun and amazes me at how witty he can be at such a young age. I am chief answerer of all-important questions that make me marvel at that constant drive for knowledge. I answer to the nicknames ‘Mumber Tumber’, ‘Mummy-arse’, and ‘Mumma Bumma’.

I am mother to a 10 month old exploring his world with his new-found skill of mobility, and his sense of humour with hilarious games of peekaboo and shaking his head. Our relationship is quieter, with fewer questions. I am provider. I am always there. I watch him instinctively turn to the right as he stirs at night, searching for me where he knows I can always be found. I wake with his beaming face next to mine.

Motherhood is all-encompassing right now. Day times are non-stop, and evenings and nights are dedicated to Rory. There is not one hour that is mine alone. Motherhood is exhausting and tricky, but good at the same time because I know how lucky I am. Motherhood is fun and pride in abundance.

Recently, I have dedicated too much time to worrying about things I don’t have, or am not likely to achieve in the near future. The five-year plan that can’t even get off the ground. Mother’s Day serves as a good reminder to take some time to appreciate the things that I do have, the things that I would trade everything else for in a heartbeat.



  1. I love reading your blog Chloe, I always feel like it’s so honest and can relate to much of what you say in relation to Rory seeing as L is almost the same age, I am in awe of the fact you can manage 2 boys, I can’t even foresee a second child in my future yet as I’m in such a sleep deprived haze most of the time! I’ve had moments recently too where I’ve been worrying about what we don’t have or what I haven’t a chance to do yet, it was all consuming until last week but have realised also that I’m lucky with what I have and giving L my full attention is what’s important right now. As challenging as it can be sometimes, he isn’t always going to need me this much so will embrace it while I can 🙂 Look forward to your next post xo

    1. Ah, thank you – this is a really lovely comment to read.

      It seems like the easiest thing in the world to just appreciate what you have, but in reality, it all gets to us sometimes – I think it’s only natural to be thinking ahead.

  2. Oh that’s so beautifully written and so true. I think sometimes we all get a bit lost in the trenches as it were and it is hard to live life without any downtime; it’s ultimately unsustainable but fortunately children grow up and the phase passes! But to step out and treasure it is definitely the way to go!

  3. Absolutely LOVE this post Chloe, this is 100% how I feel at the moment. Motherhood is all-encompassing. I’m consumed by it, make no apology for it. Also completely identify with the rethinking of goals/focusing on what you do have instead of what you don’t. I don’t have much to add to what you’ve said, just wanted to let you know you’ve really struck a chord! xx

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